INTRODUCING ME

Hi. 
It's me. 
It's been a while since we talked. 


I don't have the time, energy, or desire to apologize, process, or explain. So I'm just going to make this fast. 


Here are a few things you may need to know....
I leave for Jamaica- June 8
I leave for Australia - July 12 
What was I thinking? 


My days are currently all about work, second work, and preparing for this summer. And in between doing those things, I freak out about doing those things. I thought what I needed was a miracle. 


Good thing I found out this to be true:

 Jesus answered, “Very truly I tell you, you are looking for me, not because you saw the signs I performed but because you ate the loaves and had your fill.  Do not work for food that spoils, but for food that endures to eternal life, which the Son of Man will give you. For on him God the Father has placed his seal of approval.”

  Then they asked him, “What must we do to do the works God requires?”

Jesus answered, “The work of God is this: to believe in the one he has sent.” John 6:26-29

Here is a fact -

Nobody drowns gracefully. 

No use getting overwhelmed. 

After all, if God is on my side, who can be against me?  

In short:
A little more peace
A little less worry
A little more patience
And a little less hurry


More God then I can imagine
He gives me more love then my mind can conceive 
AND THE MORE I TRUST IN HIM
THE MORE HE IS FAITHFUL 
Over and over and over He's able
More God
More God to me
-NewSong


This is a deep thought I had this week: 

Why does it always feel like if I act terrible you will leave me? You know, maybe if you weren't always on the verge of leaving, I wouldn't act so terrible. 


Here is another thought I had this week:
Why is society always telling me to make myself happy? 


My entire life has been defined by my unwillingness to ever push myself to do ANYTHING painful, uncomfortable, or outside of my comfort zone. 
But guess what? 
God asks us to do those things sometimes. 


So now I have to sit on the floor and cry because the thought of being out of control is that difficult for me?
Forget that.  
My life is fearful when it ought to be free. 
I'm tired of drowning in a sea of people who proclaim the highest goal in life to be comfort. 


What if I could gain something higher by sacrificing my self-indulgence? 


Here is a resolution I made this week: 
FINISH SOMETHING. 
Do you know the number one reason people don't finish things?






They give up. 


I am a troubled mind, I am a calloused heart
A failing engine from driving way too hard
Trying way too hard
I pulled a 38 out of my bleeding heart
I killed my selfishness for bringing me this far
This far away from you.

When the daylight breaks through the buildings of Chicago,
I will stand alone in the valley of tomorrow.

Oh, this is the way I wanna go down
(This is the last time) I'm starting over with you,
This is the way I wanna go out.

I never second-guessed the little voice I heard
It's just a whisper that sounded like a scream
I ain't never felt so free.
-Needtobreathe 




I couldn't possibly keep my job if I'm gone all summer, right? 


I finally worked up the nerve to approach my boss and quit. She looked and me for a moment and then replied that I didn't have to do that. She will hold my job for me until I get back.


... that you, God?  


Here is the quote for this week, accurately portrayed in artistic format: 

And finally, 

I am so blessed. 

I just don't think I realize that enough. 

And if you made it to the end of this blog you probably feel like you just had a great deal thrown at you. 

That makes two of us. I love you, reader.